Getting Old

Lately, I have been having heart problems t night while sleeping. I wake up with pain in my left arm and a heart struggling to pump. Scary but perhaps the worse thing is the realization that I am getting old. My life is coming to an end. 60. Close to retirement age. Yikes.

I find myself thinking about the wonderful life I have had; a life filled with adventure, love, and lots of learning.  But I also think about how I want to spend the rest of it. The past couple of weeks I have been cleaning the attic by myself.  Along with runny nose and watering eyes due to my allergies, my back hurts.  Is this how I want to spend perhaps the last day of my life - doing grunt work that no one else wants to do all by myself?  The answer has not come to me yet so i keep going back up there by myself to do the work.  I have realized one thing - there will be less mess for someone else to deal with when I am gone!  That makes me smile.