Sorting Things Out

I literally cried last night when I read the ages of the children. So young that they probably did not know how to defend themselves.  Killing them is unthinkable.  My brain has been trying to come to terms with this horrific thing that has happened and like so many others, understand why.

I visualized myself in the shoes of a killer going and killing young children.  The only thing I could come up with is intense hate for young children in general.  The mother was not associated with the school as reported falsely so why.  Intense hate for young children in general. This could stem from intense self hate if they person was a born pedophile who did not want to act on their natural impulse and was too cowardice to take their own life.  This also explains killing the mother who would have felt this was evil thinking,  They would hate all of the young children they coveted. They would hate themselves. They would hate their mother. Unfortunately, this offers an explanation.

The other explanation is Jihad. That he had converted to Islam and wanted to create terror and grief. Unfortunately, this explanation would mean that he succeeded. It would also mean that he killed 6 and 7 year olds in the name of God but this has happened before and apparently, some people feel that God wants children dead in order to forward the Islamic beliefs and to make people want to convert to Islam out of fear.